Thursday, September 19, 2013


Nietzsche said that all of man's old impulses now turned inward on himself in modern men and this is disease, and this is why we feel guilt. I don’t agree with Nietzsche but idea is beautiful J Guilt is not a personal disease but social. Guilt is a way for society to rule the person. And this is a bad way – rules become behavioral patterns and they in turn never change disregarding anything.

That’s not all yet.

“Everyone is a moon, and has a dark side which he never shows to anybody.” © Mark Twain
The worst here is that the “dark side” never changes while nobody sees it. Why should it be changed. Because it limits us, limits our abilities. There’s a lot of stuff about guilt in the Internet, I don’t want to repeat it all. What I write about is overcoming the limits. The clue is watching.

You can feel guilt about action or it’s result, furthermore the feelings of guilt are different:
1.       Social – when you feel all the world around you looks at you and blames
2.       Personal – you feel that you did something wrong toward others and you blame yourself
3.       Intermediate – you did something wrong and it affects your relations
So if you feel guilt the first thing you can do is “rating” your guilt




Just think about it and find its place in this table – there must be only one. This action has no real meaning except watching the guilt from outside.

Next step is to understand where it limits you. What’d you do without this feeling. Try to imagine this thing causing you to feel guilty never happened.

The last step is treating. The idea of treating is changing your understanding of your guilt in such a way that it doesn’t limit you anymore.

It works like this: recall some case from your life when you felt really happy. You need this state of happiness. Now, while watching your guilt from outside, become happy because of your guilt, just smile like an idiot and bring this state of happiness to the situation. I know it looks stupid, but it works.

Now when you did it (if you did it) you shouldn’t be limited or guided by your bad feelings, otherwise just repeat the trick.

Same way it works for shame and conscience. Good luck

Friday, November 9, 2012

Witches and their spells

In 1944, Helen Duncan was gaoled under the Witchcraft Act on the grounds that she had claimed to summon spirits. The last threatened use of the Act against a medium was in 1950. In 1951 the Witchcraft Act was repealed.
Yes, England XX century. But times change. English Witchcraft Act 1735 was based on the Anglican preaching that the mother of all witches, the Witch of Endor, was nothing but a mere impostor. Today you can call yourself witch and have some good practice without any problem. What’s good here is that people do not die or get imprisoned because of the fear or religious bigotry of others. What is bag is that you can be a mere impostor and nobody will ever tell you that you lie.

What is witch or who is? I checked it in the Online Etymology Dictionary and found there two interesting things.

1. Klein suggests connection with O.E. wigle "divination," and wig, wih "idol."
2. At this day it is indifferent to say in the English tongue, 'she is a witch,' or 'she is a wise woman.' [Reginald Scot, "The Discoverie of Witchcraft," 1584]

These two (the idol from the first and the wise woman from the second) combined together give the woman who uses or keeps some sacred knowledge. If you translate the word witch to different languages you mostly get words derived from knowledge, prophesy, spell and evil. Well, evil comes from the fear of unknown but the result is almost same – one who knows and who can use this knowledge.

Now who is a witch today? The best way to understand it is to look at what they do and how they do it. One of the most common practices is spell casting. Does it work? If you look in Google for the answer, most sites say, “Sometimes they work, sometimes they don't”. This is “politically correct” form of “NO”. There’re two main reasons for that: lack of knowledge, and lack of power. This is not fault of contemporary witches. This is result of inquisition. More than 100.000 women were murdered during the middle ages. Most of them had nothing in common with the witchcraft, but most of those who had didn’t survive that too. Furthermore most of those who kept traditions preferred to stop it to save their children.

But something still can be done to make spells work or to increase its efficiency. Most of contemporary spells repeat or resemble those of middle ages, this is wrong. Spell is a description of the world and the world changed. You can’t talk about powers of nature when you have no idea about these powers. Most of townspeople don’t survive in the nature more than a week if they get there without food, clothes and cellular phone. Contemporary spell must be based upon contemporary reality with all its phones, planes, nuclear bombs, Internet and the rest of the things we are used to.

Spell must have some effect and this effect in turn must be reached by applying this spell to some object. We are talking about human world and any object in this world exists as a subject of perception. But it’s much easy to change perception from inside the human psychology.

“…"Psychic forces" have far more to do with the realm of the unconscious. Our mania for rational explanations obviously has its roots in our fear of metaphysics, for the two were always hostile brothers. Hence, anything unexpected that approaches us from the dark realm is regarded either as coming from outside and, therefore, as real, or else as an hallucination and, therefore, not true. The idea that anything could be real or true which does not come from outside has hardly begun to dawn on contemporary man…”© C. Jung

This way the spell must be personal, I mean you can’t just use the spell from some grimoire if you are not initialized in corresponding tradition but you must compose spells of your. Composing spells contains two parts.

1. Unconsciousness is reachable through archetypes.

An archetype is a universally understood symbol, term, or pattern of behavior, a prototype upon which others are copied, patterned, or emulated. Archetypes are often used in myths and storytelling across different cultures.

In psychology, an archetype is a model of a person, personality, or behavior.

So the first part is to find the right archetype and to describe the result you want to reach in its terms. If you believe in gods personificating the powers you need, this is your way, if you don’t – find something in the outer world creating this result, doesn’t matter what. Now figure the way of getting your result: ask the god, search the Internet, drive the car, whatever, but it must be the real way to what you want.

2. Archetypes are reachable through the representing symbols and this is the hard part. It’s not enough to imagine something of the kind. You must live in the world you’re trying to create, your spell must cause you to visualize the picture of what this spell about. It’s not that you cast the spell and visualize but it’s you cast it and see it, just it and nothing else.

To accomplish this you must use the right words when you’re composing your spell. It makes sense to build dictionary of the “right words”. “Right words” are the words appealing to your psychic forces. When you say the “right word” you feel that it’s more than just abstract sound, it touches you some way. “Right words” are always personal, that’s why the spell you compose is personal too.

Now how to find the right words. Close your eyes and think about different things: flower, mother, car, war, money, child, tree… Every word gives you different feelings, some of them deep, some of them almost insensible. You need those, making you react. React like sense emotions, remember something and so forth.
It’s a long work. Just take some kind of dictionary (I think some kind of explanatory or etymological dictionary is good enough) and go through it. And write your results.
Now, when you have your dictionary of the “right words” use these words to compose your spell. But think twice – your spell must make you visualize the most exact picture you can think about.

By the way, technique of finding the “right words” is good to check if you chose the right archetype – it must touch you somewhere too.

How your spell works now. Well, now it depends on your power. Not everyone has enough power to make things work. Sometimes it can be passed over by getting some kind of initiation, but you wouldn’t read that far have you had one (different kinds of “New Age” initiations usually don’t work). Sometimes you can gain power of your own or recollect some from your past, and I’ll talk about it one day later.

Monday, October 29, 2012

Magnum Opus

“On an evening before Easter I was sitting at my table and after I had communed with my Creator, as I was ac¬customed to do, in humble prayer and meditation on Meditation many great mysteries which the Father of the Light in his majesty had shown me abundantly, I desired to prepare, together with my beloved Paschal Lamb, a pure, unleav¬ened wafer in my heart.” - Alchemical Wedding of Christian Rosycross.

Fulcanelli said that “Alchemical Wedding” can be regarded as a valid alchemical text.

Easter is a good time to begin the Great Work. Furthermore it should be begun somewhere between April and May or Taurus and Gemini. There’s a widely used technological process performed between Taurus and Gemini upon the Black Virgin.

This process resembles burning the green candles.
“Another detail useful to the hermeticist is that in die ceremonial prescribed for the processions of the black Virgins only green-coloured candles were burnt.” © Fulcanelli

Oh, and it stinks.

Maybe it’s a key, at least one of them.

Well, I’m not an alchemist and I don’t plan to be one :)

Sunday, October 21, 2012


We are all different. Everybody sees and acknowledges each other's differences but you can't tell a book by its cover. The more differences between us, the less we understand each other. Misunderstanding leads to troubles. Most of troubles we solve in two ways: peace or war; and both need understanding. You need to understand one whom you want to be your friend and you need to understand one whom you want to defeat.

Understanding is not a simple task; it’s used to think that one can’t know the inside of a man's mind. And the problem here is the difference between us. But the problem can be overcome. Difference means separation, which is right in everyday life, but just there. There’re parts of us we all share. I don’t talk about something transpersonal like egregores now but I talk about parts of psychology we all share. Some of them can be used for telepathy but it’s not simple. There’re techniques much simpler, one of them is approximation. The idea here is changing the point of view similar to one of the man you want to understand while watching the interesting subject.

Close your eyes. You must see now something like gray screen. Now imagine the person you want to understand; the image comes from some point around you, find this point (well, you can train on other objects or people :) ) and move to it. You should notice now some change in your feelings, your perception changes to one like of the man you want to understand. If it didn’t happen you did something wrong. Now, from within this point try to look at the “gray screen” and recall the subject you want to understand. See the difference in perception?

That’s it.

Monday, October 15, 2012

Elements 3

There are five elements: Ether, Air, Fire, Water, and Earth. Only four of them are present in any real object of this world. Only three of them are present in the Tree of Life.

Why. Elements are types or ways of existence and existence is a process so the best way to explain the elements is to explain how they appear in process.
Any process needs some kind of substance for its appearance: it can be medium, space.. whatever – base. And then it goes through 5 states.

1. Concept – Ether
2. Future – Air
3. Present – Fire
4. Past – Water
5. Base for next – Earth

So why it’s five and four and three. Tree of Life is the simple case. I wrote already that Major Arcana (in its human representation, and the Tree of Life is of the same kind) are the most abstract level of our mind activity. This way Ether = Concept is the idea and Earth = perceptible part of the World; and the Tree of Life represents realization of the idea in this World. What’s left is Air, Fire, and Water. When Air is represented by Arcana 1, 5, 6, 10, 11, 14, 18, 19; Water – 2, 7, 8, 12, 13, 15, 20, 21; Fire – 3, 4, 9, 16, 17, 22.

Material world is more tricky case. I showed previously how to use Ether in work with material objects but even so there’s no Ether in matter. The trick is there’re no objects in this world but instead there’s process of “rendering” of realized concepts into objects. I’ll show how it works.

Everyone of us is a product of our mind in some way. So there’s a process of constant creating of human being or whatever you call it (with 5 elements) and there’s a result of this process viewable in any moment as a body or something like that (with 4 elements). Now how it works together. Cycle of elements appears for us in form of tattvas – kind of time division of a human life. There’re five tattvas:

1. Akasha tattva – Ether
2. Vayu tattva – Air
3. Agni tattva – Fire
4. Apas tattva – Water
5. Pritivi tattva – Earth

Every tattva lasts for 24 minutes (sometimes when you work with karma or solve some psychological problem the cycle may change, like jumping to different tattva, but it returns to 24 min. * 5 instantly). This way when you go through Akasha you’re in Ether, but there’s no Ether for your body. Hence, you don’t disappear for 24 minutes every 2 hours. What really happens during Akasha tattva, you go through the time of physical uncertainty. Only physical. It doesn’t really affect you since the mind or psyche (or whatever you call it) is the determinant, but this phenomenon can be easily observed.

Take the pendulum, wait for Akasha tattva, and try to find what is the year of your birth using this scale.

Something goes wrong doesn’t it? :) It’s not only pendulum. Any physical device will produce wrong results during the Akasha tattva. But if you use “mind only” techniques you will never meet problems of this kind.

So there’re only four elements in physical world. But the Ether is still present – it defines the equilibrium or relations for the other four. Frankly, it’s a bit more complex – everyone of the elements defines relations of the other four in any object but Ether does it in most usable (for humans at least) way.

That’s how it works.

Friday, October 5, 2012

Total recall (past lives memories)

In 1944 Carl Jung completed one of his greatest books “Psychology and Alchemy”. I love Jung and I really appreciate his works, he was a great scientist. But despite this book is one of his best, it was great mistake. Mistake people made before Jung and after Jung. Psychology can’t explain magic because no system can be explained or described by its part.

The core difference between scientific and magical approaches to psychology is that science sees psychology as a static “black box” with slightly changeable parameters when from magic point of view it’s a constantly developing system of related identities growing from life to life.

We live our lives one by one and in every incarnation we create identities. Once we die it becomes part of our unconsciousness for the next lives. Usually we don’t remember our previous lives and this is crucial to diversifying our experience. But one day everyone reaches the point when using previous experience makes more sense than collecting the new one. Some people just start to remember something, some others must use some techniques to do this. There’re many techniques in this case and they’re all different, from training ability to remember to reincarnating previous identities. We all different so there’s no one best technique for everyone. I’ll describe one that should work for most of people who reached the “point of recalling”.

This is not simple. This is not really hard but not simple.

The main idea of this technique is that we need our experience for further development. Another idea is that there’s some part of us that never dies.

First part is the underlying technique – identification. We see, hear, feel… the outer world from some point inside the head. It’s not “where I am” but it’s “where I watch from”. This point is moveable. The easiest trick is to move it along your body. It usually stops in chakras and changes your perception accordingly (btw it’s a good practice to look at different things from different chakras – sometimes it enables to overcome the stereotypical understanding). Next step is to move this point out of body. Try to move it to some object like table or tree, if you do it right you should feel what it feels that moment – this is identification.

Second part is to find the part of us that never dies. Well, this is a part that develops through all our lives. So it would be good idea to look for something developing. Try to recall all the cases of your life when you learned something. Not these gray annoying days in the school but something that made you feel you really advanced. All these memories have something in common, some special feeling of advancing, of growth – this is what you need, catch this feeling. Now there’s some point where this feeling comes from, you must find it. If you never tried to catch your feeling this way try to use Osho’s technique “Look into your headache” from “The Orange Book”, it should work. The point is something like 8 – 10 inches before your forehead and 2 inches above your eyes.

Now identify yourself with this point. There must be some hardly describable feeling when you do this – this is a new connection built between parts of your… psyche. And now try to recall some of your childish dreams, if you did everything right, it must look more like memories now. If it doesn’t – start from the beginning and don’t forget that not everyone can do it, so if you constantly fail you maybe do not need it or you need some other technique.

Ancient Greeks believed that when we die we drink water from river Letha to forget our lives, and before we come into the world we drink it again to forget our post mortal existence.

But there was another river in realm of Hades – Mnemosine that returned memory. And there was goddess with same name that personalized memory and identity.

So if you succeeded, you can talk now to this part of yours and it will tell you about your past lives and show it. And this in turn will help you to develop the new identity, because identity is what really disables recalling memories from the past lives and if you rebuild it to enable you to recall your memories you just stop dying, because death is forgetting.

Monday, October 1, 2012


I wrote already about shoulder devil. Now it’s about shoulder angel.
Just like death it’s a part of our energy but not the real angel. But it can act like one. It can give good advices because it knows everything about our abilities.
It’s called Power and it can be found on right behind the back.

I don’t know whether don Juan knew something about it – his understanding of power was different. I think the idea of the “death on the left” was taken from some ancient system and adopted for the Toltec needs while rejecting the rest of ideas.

Power is an ability to do something. Everyone can do something, those who cannot just do not live. So this is a point of entrance of all our energy (yes I know about Sushumna, Ida and Pingala and I know about Qi energy cycling, this is just another view). What’s interesting here is that any initiation you get connects to this point as an external source of energy or power and if it limits you someway it’s done here too.

Just like Death your Power can be reached through its graphical representation. But even so your Power can tell you many interesting and useful things about your abilities it makes sense to look at it before talking – sometimes it’s not the worst thing to know what is the source of your power and what are its limitations before using it or listening to its advices. So this one enables you to see your Power from aside.